Stupid Animals and Annoying Broken Hearts

I am fickle, I am selfish. I spoil my dog, and let my houseplants die. It made me angry would no one would adopt my foster cat, Oliver, but when I found out that somebody had it made me sad. Last semester, the Semester of Heck, I felt like Oliver. Nobody wanted him; nobody seemed to want me either. The thing was, he was hardly a perfect cat. His personality was somewhere between "dog" and "chubby stoner", but all his bizarre habits and quirks became my favourite things. He was my cat, and the longer no one wanted to adopt him, the more attached to him I became. For many reasons I had to go home for the summer, and for a handful I couldn't take him with me.

I tried to find him a home, but I guess I'll admit that part of me didn't want him to be adopted. I figured that if no one had wanted him from January to April, what was another four months? I'd save up money, cut myself off from the yarn stores and the book stores, and adopt the fat cat myself. It lasted for a month, and then I found out that someone had adopted him. Logically, I want to be happy. Someone wants him, he doesn't have to wait another three months for a home, his new place is probably bigger and nicer than our apartment. That's what my lovely and more balance room mate says. I try to tell myself that too. But I was selfish, and I wanted him for myself. Relationships with pets are a funny thing- they're supposed to be easier to work then ones with humans, particularly since they can't talk. But there are those funny times when they seem like something more, when it seems like a dog or cat can read your mind. You're probably reading too much into some dumb beast that's rolling around in some the remains of some other dumb beast while you have all these silly thoughts, but whatever. It works. Oliver was like that for me. I hope his new home loves him, takes care of him, and lets him wake them up at four in the morning by a paw to the head. And that they don't let him get too skinny. That was one of the things I liked best about him.